The Journals

Guided Entries

This isn’t journaling. This is remembering.

These are the words that didn’t belong in the algorithm.
The questions no therapist dared to ask.
The rants, letters, and scribbled downloads that only ever made sense at 3:33 AM.

Sometimes soft.
Sometimes savage.
Always real.
This is where the disruption gets personal —
where you stop performing and start channeling.

Before You Begin

You’re not just writing.
You’re opening a portal.

To activate what’s buried, you must shift out of surface mode and into soul mode. Here’s how:

1. Light a candle or sit in darkness.
   This signals your body that something sacred is about to happen.

2. Play 963 Hz or 741 Hz audio in the background.
   These frequencies activate your pineal gland and dissolve illusion.

3. Close your eyes and breathe in for 4, hold for 7, exhale for 8.
   Repeat until you feel your thoughts start to loosen their grip.

4. Whisper “Code 44 – Theta” or write it at the top of the page.
   This signals your higher mind you’re ready to receive.
   It’s not a vibe. It’s an invocation.

Then… write like the world is already burning.
Because it is. And your truth is water.

The moment you wonder why you can’t find the right words…
is the moment your soul starts speaking without permission.

• What lie am I still living because I think it’s safer than the truth?

• If I let go of the person they think I am — who shows up in her place?

• What does my soul know that my mind keeps overriding?

• What version of me am I secretly mourning, even though she had to go?

• What would I say if I didn’t care who it made uncomfortable?

• What am I afraid will happen if I finally tell the truth out loud?

• What part of me did I bury in order to be loved?

• What do I know that I’ve never said out loud?

• What would I write if I knew it would never be read by anyone else?

• What feels like death but is actually a return?

Awakening Prompts (Already started above — soul remembering, third-eye opening)

Grief & Shedding Prompts (To process what you're losing in the process of waking up)

• What versions of me am I mourning right now?

• Who have I outgrown, but still feel guilty leaving behind?

• What dreams did I once chase that now feel heavy?

• What parts of my past am I still trying to keep alive just to feel safe?

• What is trying to die in me right now that I keep reviving out of fear?

• What have I been biting my tongue about for years?

• Who am I angry at and what is the wound underneath it?

• What injustice in the world mirrors a truth I haven’t healed yet?

• If I could say the unsayable, what would I scream into the void?

• What have I been complicit in by staying silent?

Truth & Rage Prompts (For when the fire hits and it’s time to scream on paper)

Shadow & Pattern Break Prompts (For deprogramming & confronting subconscious conditioning)

• Who do I become when I’m afraid I’ll be abandoned?

• What mask do I wear that gets the most applause?

• What pattern keeps replaying in my life, and what does it protect me from?

• When did I first learn that being myself wasn’t safe?

• Whose story am I still living?

• What do I crave that I’ve never allowed myself to pursue?

• What parts of my desire have been labeled “too much”?

• If I stopped asking for permission, what would I create?

• What does my body want that my mind keeps suppressing?

• What version of my life would make me say: “This is it. I’m free.”

Desire & Soul-Pull Prompts (To remember what you actually want, not what you were told to want)

Divine Remembrance & Future Self Prompts (To connect with the truth beyond the illusion)

• What does the highest version of me already know?

• What if everything I’ve been through was preparation?

• If my life is a coded transmission, what is it trying to say?

• What do I feel called to build that scares me?

• What message would my soul whisper to me if I finally got still enough to hear it?

• What if this darkness isn’t punishment — but initiation?

• What am I being stripped of right now that no longer serves me?

• If I could speak from this pain instead of escaping it, what would I say?

• What lie finally became too heavy to carry?

• What is being born through the part of me that feels like it's dying?

The Collapse (Dark Night of the Soul)

Ancestral & Lineage Clearing (Inherited pain, spiritual contracts, DNA deprogramming)

• What pain have I inherited that didn’t start with me — but must end with me?

• What patterns did I learn through watching my mother suffer?

• What spiritual gifts have been silenced in my family line?

• Who was I before my bloodline was colonized, broken, or shamed?

• What sensations do I avoid feeling?

• Where in my body do I feel like I’m not allowed to exist?

• What does safety feel like — and do I even recognize it?

• What parts of my body carry stories that were never spoken?

Body, Sensory & Nervous System Reconnection (Embodiment, safety, unfreezing trauma)

The Mission, The Calling, The Codes (Purpose remembrance, soul blueprint integration)

• What am I here to disrupt — not fix?

• What truths move through me that won’t let me stay silent?

• If I let myself believe I was chosen for something specific, what would I say yes to?

• What message do I carry that could only be delivered in my voice?

Use These Pages to:

• Rage.

• Weep.

• Decode dreams.

• Write letters you’ll never send.

• Transcribe transmissions that come in during the silence.

This is not for content.
It’s for contact.
With yourself.

This is the page they never wanted you to fill.
Which is exactly why you must.

This is your truth returning to its original language.
Not the end of what you have to say —
the beginning of saying what actually matters.